11-15-2018, 08:21 PM
For physical well being:
I have had two seizure episodes in the past month and on a few occasions my heart beat as been read in the low 30s. I still have no idea what is behind it, and the doctors are requiring me to be very limited in physical activity(walking is apparently the most physical exertion I'm allowed to spend at the moment). My last job has ended(seasonal) and most of the jobs I can realistically apply to require me to spend a fair amount of physical exertion. My situation is not dire. I have a fair amount of money saved and my family is happy to have me live with them(Thank God, it is a blessing I don't deserve).
For spiritual well being:
In the past two years I have become lukewarm. I also wasn't praying much outside of Mass, thinking just to pray when temptation arose(don't do this, it is an awful idea). I also had too much desire to live as others do, daydreaming of a Catholic world where I wouldn't feel so alone, hoping that my life was just a dream. This led me not to accept the Will of God, praying more for the things of this world, rather than accepting God's Will, making reparations for my sins, and praying for the things that would make me more pleasing to God. These things being sewn, and having repeatedly fell into mortal sin, lost hope and for half a year paid no mind to the matters of my sanctification(virtual apostasy).
I have left these things behind me(though I am really good at lying to myself), but I have fear that I will slowly, without detection, fall right back in, which I think will ultimately lead to apostasy.
If anyone is looking for additional prayer intentions, basically to pray for my(and every person having trouble living the faith) eternal salvation and for me to trust in God.
I have had two seizure episodes in the past month and on a few occasions my heart beat as been read in the low 30s. I still have no idea what is behind it, and the doctors are requiring me to be very limited in physical activity(walking is apparently the most physical exertion I'm allowed to spend at the moment). My last job has ended(seasonal) and most of the jobs I can realistically apply to require me to spend a fair amount of physical exertion. My situation is not dire. I have a fair amount of money saved and my family is happy to have me live with them(Thank God, it is a blessing I don't deserve).
For spiritual well being:
In the past two years I have become lukewarm. I also wasn't praying much outside of Mass, thinking just to pray when temptation arose(don't do this, it is an awful idea). I also had too much desire to live as others do, daydreaming of a Catholic world where I wouldn't feel so alone, hoping that my life was just a dream. This led me not to accept the Will of God, praying more for the things of this world, rather than accepting God's Will, making reparations for my sins, and praying for the things that would make me more pleasing to God. These things being sewn, and having repeatedly fell into mortal sin, lost hope and for half a year paid no mind to the matters of my sanctification(virtual apostasy).
I have left these things behind me(though I am really good at lying to myself), but I have fear that I will slowly, without detection, fall right back in, which I think will ultimately lead to apostasy.
If anyone is looking for additional prayer intentions, basically to pray for my(and every person having trouble living the faith) eternal salvation and for me to trust in God.