Jumping In and Out of Hell
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I struggle with impure actions, as most of you know. It's something I've been battling since childhood. The thing that bothers me the most about it is how quickly I end up going from being in a state of grace to being in danger of going to hell if I die before I can get to confession. One slip up and all my good works and past accomplishments towards holiness count for nothing, and I am literally teetering on the brink of hell until I go to confession....then bam, I'm all good again until my next slip up.

For someone who is scrupuous and struggles with extreme anxiety, this is too much to bear, and it is literally driving me insane.

I fell last night. My fiance and I have been under duress all week and the emotional strain was nearly unbearable. I fall more when I'm under a great deal of stress. Anyway, now I'll go to hell if I die between now and when I can drag my ass to confession and tell the priest the same sin over and over again like a broken record.

I mean, confession doesn't really help. And even when I can receive communion, it doesn't seem to help either. I've gone to Mass and then gone right home and succumbed again.

In and out of hell like a yo-yo....it doesn't feel like it should be this way.

JUST. STOP. SINNING. THEN YOU WON'T HAVE THIS PROBLEM. That's what everybody usually tells me.

Well, if that worked, I wouldn't be here now would I?
St. Joseph, Terror of Demons, Pillar of Families, Glory of Domestic Life, Pray for Us!

When I was a kid my parents moved a lot, but I always found them.
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Jumping In and Out of Hell - by SacraCor714 - 03-16-2018, 02:15 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by BC - 03-16-2018, 02:25 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by FultonFan - 03-16-2018, 02:38 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by SacraCor714 - 03-16-2018, 02:41 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by FultonFan - 03-16-2018, 02:51 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Galahad3 - 03-16-2018, 02:44 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by SacraCor714 - 03-16-2018, 03:25 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by FultonFan - 03-16-2018, 03:38 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by SacraCor714 - 03-16-2018, 08:00 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by FultonFan - 03-16-2018, 08:32 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Rivers - 03-17-2018, 02:12 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by BC - 03-17-2018, 09:21 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Rivers - 03-18-2018, 06:25 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by BC - 03-18-2018, 06:53 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Rivers - 03-18-2018, 07:11 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by BC - 03-18-2018, 01:10 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Rivers - 03-18-2018, 01:31 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Rivers - 03-19-2018, 02:49 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Rivers - 03-19-2018, 03:33 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by SacraCor714 - 03-19-2018, 11:51 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Galahad3 - 03-16-2018, 03:29 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Poche - 03-17-2018, 01:09 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by IntoTheMystic - 03-18-2018, 08:22 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by GangGreen - 03-18-2018, 09:40 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by SacraCor714 - 03-19-2018, 11:25 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Rivers - 03-19-2018, 03:43 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by SacraCor714 - 03-19-2018, 11:57 AM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by Ptochos - 03-21-2018, 12:36 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by GangGreen - 03-21-2018, 01:40 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by BC - 03-21-2018, 02:11 PM
RE: Jumping In and Out of Hell - by gracemary5 - 03-23-2018, 12:24 PM



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