04-03-2018, 08:38 PM
In regard to your comment about always being in mortal sin: I've seen posts you've made in the past that address issues surrounding repeatedly falling into sins such as masturbation. I thought your comments were very insightful and clear-headed. It sounds like you are now no longer taking your own advice on this topic. Maybe you should go back and read some of those posts.
You mentioned suffering from some mental problems. Are those issues still present? While these things are sometimes transient, we can often learn to live with them and get used to them, and that can have a very deleterious effect over the long term. I would echo the recommendation to visit a therapist of some kind if it is financially feasible. There are lots of little things you can do to stabilize yourself mentally too. Because you sound quite depressed, I hate to say "eat well and exercise" but you really really should. It's a vicious cycle when you're feeling too down and unmotivated, and that sedentary lifestyle compounds the problem. Make yourself do 30 minutes of cardio several times a week. Try the Couch to 5K program (https://www.nhs.uk/Livewell/c25k/Pages/c...-plan.aspx); it's the best way to push yourself to exercise efficiently without burning yourself out. Especially given your current mental state. Go to the store and buy yourself a store-brand multivitamin and take it everyday in the morning. Cut down on simple sugars where you can to avoid crashes and depression.
As cliche as it may sound, consider your strengths. You've been able to find a number of jobs over time, indicating you have a level of social and professional competence that other people struggle with immensely. You had a guy move across state lines to be with you. Although you made reference to your loneliness, you've still found love in your life and had a breadth of experience that should, if nothing else, serve as proof that finding companionship is not out of reach. Avoid generalizing too much from the pain you feel now. Use the Easter season to pray for a sort of resurrection in your own life. Don't be afraid to spend some time just distracting yourself (as long as you're also exercising and taking care of yourself). Do you want some anime or video game recommendations?
You mentioned suffering from some mental problems. Are those issues still present? While these things are sometimes transient, we can often learn to live with them and get used to them, and that can have a very deleterious effect over the long term. I would echo the recommendation to visit a therapist of some kind if it is financially feasible. There are lots of little things you can do to stabilize yourself mentally too. Because you sound quite depressed, I hate to say "eat well and exercise" but you really really should. It's a vicious cycle when you're feeling too down and unmotivated, and that sedentary lifestyle compounds the problem. Make yourself do 30 minutes of cardio several times a week. Try the Couch to 5K program (https://www.nhs.uk/Livewell/c25k/Pages/c...-plan.aspx); it's the best way to push yourself to exercise efficiently without burning yourself out. Especially given your current mental state. Go to the store and buy yourself a store-brand multivitamin and take it everyday in the morning. Cut down on simple sugars where you can to avoid crashes and depression.
As cliche as it may sound, consider your strengths. You've been able to find a number of jobs over time, indicating you have a level of social and professional competence that other people struggle with immensely. You had a guy move across state lines to be with you. Although you made reference to your loneliness, you've still found love in your life and had a breadth of experience that should, if nothing else, serve as proof that finding companionship is not out of reach. Avoid generalizing too much from the pain you feel now. Use the Easter season to pray for a sort of resurrection in your own life. Don't be afraid to spend some time just distracting yourself (as long as you're also exercising and taking care of yourself). Do you want some anime or video game recommendations?